I must get in touch with God & grow as much as I can.

He is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him.

We magnify God's worth most when He becomes our only boast.

We live to gladly make others glad in God.

Our lives must look as if we use our possessions to make ppl glad in God-especially the most needy.

God does not call us to ease, but to faithful joy.

God is only praised where He is prized.

Currently Reading: Don't Waste Your Life by John Piper

We need to remember that God knows much that we do not know & sees far beyond what we can see. May God have patience with us-and may we put our faith & trust in Him. God really does know what's best.

May God give us the patience to travel where He leads, no matter how inconvient it may seem. Lord, guide us through life's detours.

No one surpasses God's ability to guide us to where we ultimately need to be. Trust God to guide your life.

God reminds us that our real sufficiency lies in Him, not in meager capacities. When God calls us, there are not buts. * When I can't, God can.

At times the Lords uses what we have to make us aware of what we need. God has a way of strengthening us as He leads us. As we act in obedience & die a bit more to self, God gives us assurances of His faithfulness & provision. What is God asking you to throw down-or pick up? Whatever you are called to do, know that God desires to guide & empower you. *Don't run from God's call. **Exodus 4:1-9

We never face adversity alone. God is always beside us, no matter what menace materializes from one moment to the next. *Our loving God is ever present.

Moses wasn't perfect, yet God used him. Things did not always turn out as he had originally hoped, but Moses remained faithful. May we be like Moses & use our God-given qualities to serve the Lord. *Dare to be like Moses.  **Deut. 32:48-52

Denise: your totally right...we have not because we ask not....God is just waiting for you to ask...but like you said you have to be able and ready to hear his answer...and it may not be the one you want.....but I know it will be the one you need. You want to walk in the path God has for you...but you are afraid that He is going to take people out of your life...and he probably will. And I think its time for you to take control of your life...with God's leading of course...but...how many life preservers has he sent you that you have passed by? Like that joke Paster tells sometimes...about the man in flood and three different things try to save him and he keeps saying God will save me ...he goes to heaven and asks God why he didn't save him..Gods response I sent a helicopter, boat and something else I forget) what more did you want? I think we are waiting for all these bells and whistles to go off sometimes, but the boat is right in front of us...it's time...you have to decide if this is what I want...get bold and GO GET IT!!! And don't stop till you do...Maybe it isn't nursing God was trying to sway you from...maybe it is the place or circumstances...maybe he is trying to move you past MCC .... maybe even Meridian....but I have never believed He was closing the nursing door. Its time Mallory....its time for you to let go of all the distractions you are allowing in your life (people mostly) and go live your dream! To many people ...random people have told what a great nurse you would be ..and hoped you would not give up. QUIT LETTING PEOPLE RUN YOUR LIFE!!! IT IS TIME FOR MALLORY TO DO IT!!! And God is going to be there cheering you all the way

Why am I acting like such a rebellious teenager when it comes to praying & asking God what He wants from me? I've never been like this. Why am I so scared of what He's going to say? If anything..I should be excited! He created me. He knit me together in my mother's womb. He made me in His image. I'm His. I should be seeking Him. He sees the BIG picture. He has ordained all the days of my life. He knows the plans He has for my life.. plans to prosper & not to harm me..plans to give me a future & a hope. Throughout high school I wanted to be a nurse. I took Allied Health & studied medical terminology until I was cyanotic in the face. After graduation, I applied @ MCC & went straight to the nursing department to get my name in there. I took all nursing related classes. I applied to Nursing & got in 1st try even though I had severe test anxiety & didn't make straight A's. Then I went to my 1st day of nursing school & kinda panicked. I got in the car after Christopher picked me up from school & was like--I CAN'T DO THIS!! Everyone is moving away & leaving me! This is the HARDEST thing ever! How can I do this? Well ... I was right... sorta. No--I CAN'T DO THIS!! ....but God can. Yes everyone moved away & left me..but God provided new people in my life. Yes it was very hard...but God was right there by my side. I had doubt from the very 1st day of school...so no...I couldn't do it. I wasn't trusting God enough...I was trying to do it in my own strength. I was being stubborn. Like Chris told me the other night.. John 3:30. Well I made it thru 1st semester with lot of prayers & Bible verses. Then I got very sick around Nov/Dec. Turns out I had a bad gallbladder, so I had surgery Spring Break. I was very sick my 2nd semester of nursing school, and my grades reflected it. I finally had to drop out of nursing school. I was devastated. I lost every bit of confidence I ever had. I felt like a failure. I cried. I didn't want to lose my new friends I finally made & my career. I reapplied & got back again. I cried again. I was so happy! I was back in...I had to go into the night program..but who cares?! I was back in the game. In July I started working @ Rush in L&D. I loved it. Almost everyday I worked I saw a new baby being born. I was still lacking confidence though. A few students in school didn't help either. Anyways..I pressed on & made it all the way to the final with a B. Whoa! Me?! A b?? Wow! Well it snowed the day of the final & I got the flu! A few ppl called me & asked me to come & take my test early b/c of the weather. Instead of stopping & praying, I panicked! I was a nervous wreck & I was scared to death. I left school so nervous & went to the eye doctor & to see a FNP about the flu! Then, I went to Wal-Mart to get my meds. My teacher called & informed me that I in fact made an 81 & failed the semester. I was crushed. I read the whole book of Job. And I got frustrated too.. I didn't even try to get back in @ 1st. I just wanted to shut it out of my life since I tried twice in a row & didn't make it. I gave up. I was like--they won't let me back in anyways. A lot of ppl were on my case about trying to get back in, so in January I talked to the dean, but I had already basically screwed up my chances. I feel like I have been in limbo ever since. What do I do with my life now? Nursing for the 3rd time? Teaching? computer tech? (lol) Bum? What? I'm so lost. Why can't i just pour my heart out to God? Why am i letting all these distracters in my life get in the way of what my Savior wants from me?

"Lord empty me of me so I can be filled with You."